Addiction Fades ?

Cigarettes and crimson pictures stain my mind.
Both leave me feeling beyond sublime.
This addiction.
This restriction
All the times I've been convicted...

My mind burnt beyond expansion.
Skin torn beyond repair.
Lungs are black
But this heart of mine is blacker.

So ill do another line.
Take another toke
Slip away for awhile and stand in a corner and scream with angst.
How much more can I take?
How much longer till these addictions will mend the heart ache?

Pop the pills
Crush em up
Start with a fine line.
Breathe in one last time.
Feel the burn deep inside
And crawl back in the hole where you feel comfortable.

Grab your needle.
Find that vein.
Give it a couple seconds you'll feel no pain.
Feel your brain become numb.
Mind so desolate.
Eyes completely shot..
So let the blood stain.
Let the needle break.
Feel the pain just a lil longer

After awhile the numb begins to fade.
Now your just nothing again.
Face to face with your demon.
Staring into its eyes your left chilled and shaking.
To end this all and start a new awakening is something you can't commit to.
So your left with the same decision to get high again.
Do another line
Take one last hit
Or just let the blade sink in your skin.
After all this is your last time... Again.