One shot

Six shells in the chamber , but it only takes one .
Some day I would like to leave this world , but I can't afford a gun .
It seems the drugs used me and I got everyone to blame .
It's the same day over and over and shit stays the same.
Maybe it's a sickness of the soul or a flu of the mind .
I believe I will end it all with a flash all in due time .
I'm getting nowhere at a real slow pace.
Even the mirror wont look at my face .
Life has been living me and I want it to stop.
One day the bottom will surely drop .
When I finely hit the bottom I will surly go through the rock.
I have dug my way halfway to china and never looked up .
I am past caring that no one cares .
I am immune to the blank stairs .
I'm so low I can't look down .
Most days I don't even want me around .
I am all out of tears .
Im out of words no one will hear.
I can't love I have gone flat .
i Can't hate cause I don't care.
One for the pain .
Two for my brain.
Three is for me .
Four for the bore.
Five to take the life .
Six ........I only need one .