Is It Love?

I don’t know I you’d call it genuine love or plain stupidity
That I still love you
That after all you put my through I would take my own life just as easily as another’s for you
Please tell me if you think I’m crazy because I’m starting to believe I am
I hate you yet I love you all at the same time
You have damaged me physically and internally all in one
I no longer wanted air to fill my lungs after what you put me through
I tried to hate you so I wouldn’t want you but the more I tried to hate you the more I realised how much I loved you
I tried to tell myself I didn’t need you, then the realisation came that I do I really do need you
I need you now more than ever
I would fight to the death for you
So tell me is it love or stupidity?