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WHILE I WAS LOVIN HIM
WHILE I THOUGHT HE WUZ HELPIN ME 2 B STRONG, HE MADE ME WEAK
POSSIBLY SINCE I BELIEVED HIM EVERYTIME HE WOULD SPEAK
NOT KNOWING THE WORDS HE SPOKE WERE CHOCK FULL OF DECEIT
WHILE I WAS CAUGHT UP N OPENING UP TO HIM, HE WAS LYING TO ME
I THOUGHT HE REALLY WANTED TO KNOW IT ALL, BUT IT WASN'T MEANT TO BE
NOW I JUS WISH THAT I WOULDN'T HAVE BEEN BLINDED AND COULD SEE
WHILE I WAS DEFENDING HIM EVERYTIME SOMEONE SAID SUMTHIN, HE WAS DOING WRONG
MAYBE IT ONLY HURTS DIS BAD CAUSE I THOUGHT I WE COULD LAST, LAST FOR LONG
BUT IN THE END HE STILL DID LIKE THE OTHERS N GOT ME SINGING THIS SAME SAD SONG
WHILE MY HEART WAS SLOWLY BREAKING, HE WAS CAUSING IT TO DO SO
BUT HID IT WITH HIS SMILE AND SLICK WORDS AND MY HEART HE SO SELFISHLY STOLE
AND IM STRUGGLIN TO MAKE IT NOW, BUT I HAVE TO PRESS ON EVEN THOUGH
WHILE HE WAS DOIN HIS DIRT, I RESISTED THE EVIL TEMPTATION
AND EVEN THOUGH NIGGAS TRIED 2 GET CLOSE, I PUSHED OFF THE SENSATION
BUT LITTLE DID I KNO I WAS LOOKIN DUMB CAUSE I SURELY WASN'T HIS OBLIGATION
WHILE I WAS TRYNA PLAY MS. FAITHFUL, THE ROLE OF A WIFEY, HE WAS SEEIN HER
AND MAYBE IT ONLY BURNED ME SO BAD CUZ I HAD WARMTH WIT HIM NOW I FEEL WINTER
NOW SHE'S CARRYING A SEED THAT MAY BE HIS AND I THOUGHT I WAS A WINNER
WHILE I HAD PPL TELLIN ME HE WAS DOIN ME DIRTY, HE TRIED 2 CONVINCE ME THEY LIED
SO I DID WAT ANY SHORTY WOULD DO, STUCK UP FOR HIM AND PUSHED BACK MY PRIDE
BUT SOON I BEGAN TO REALIZE IT WAS ALL TRUE AND I DID WHAT ANY GIRL WOULD DO, I CRIED
WHILE I WAS CRYING MY TEARS OF PAIN, HE TOLD ME I 2ND GUESSED HIM N DIDN'T TRUST
BUT HE WAS SO CAUGHT UP IN THE PAST AND DISSED MY LOVE FOR LUST
AND I KNO IM HOLDIN ONTO THIS WAY 2 LONG N LETTING GO IS A MUST
WHILE IM BREAKING DOWN HE'S TELLIN ME ALL THE THINGS IM DOIN THAT I SHOULDN'T
AND IM THINKIN I COULD TELL HIM SO MANY THINGS HE DID THAT I THOUGHT HE WOULDN'T
BUT THEN I LOOK BACK ON ALL THE POSSIBILITIES I HAD AND HOW I JUS COULDN'T
WHILE WE STARTED OFF AS THE BEST OF FRIENDS, I QUESTION HIS MOTIVES NOW
WAS HE PLANNIN TO HURT ME FROM THE JUMP AND GOT CLOSE SO I WOULDNT BELIEVE PPL NO HOW
AND NOW THE ONLY THING I CAN HEAR ARE MY CRIES AND NO OTHER SOUND
BUT WHILE I CNT H8 HIM, AS BAD AS I WANT 2, HE SITS BACK AND DOWN TALKS ME
HE SAID IM TOO EMOTIONAL AND CANT JUST CHILL, WHY CANT HE SEE?
I JUS WANTED HIM 2 KNO HOW HE MADE ME FEEL, THE THING IS HE CAUSE THIS TO BE
WHILE I WILL NEVER TRUST ANOTHER WIT MY HEART'S KEEP, I THINK DAMN HE MADE ME WEAK
I THOUGHT ID B STRONG BUT I GUESS EVERY GIRL REACHES THEIR PEAK
AND THERE'S NOT MUCH ELSE I CAN DO BUT REMINISCE AND WEEP
WHILE I JUS KEPT SAYIN THIS CANT BE, HE HURT ME BEYOND REPAIR
AND FOREVER WILL I BE SET IN THE BLEEKNESS OF DESPAIR
FOR LIFE I WILL CARRY THIS LOAD WITH ME WITH NO LOVE TO SPARE.
POSSIBLY SINCE I BELIEVED HIM EVERYTIME HE WOULD SPEAK
NOT KNOWING THE WORDS HE SPOKE WERE CHOCK FULL OF DECEIT
WHILE I WAS CAUGHT UP N OPENING UP TO HIM, HE WAS LYING TO ME
I THOUGHT HE REALLY WANTED TO KNOW IT ALL, BUT IT WASN'T MEANT TO BE
NOW I JUS WISH THAT I WOULDN'T HAVE BEEN BLINDED AND COULD SEE
WHILE I WAS DEFENDING HIM EVERYTIME SOMEONE SAID SUMTHIN, HE WAS DOING WRONG
MAYBE IT ONLY HURTS DIS BAD CAUSE I THOUGHT I WE COULD LAST, LAST FOR LONG
BUT IN THE END HE STILL DID LIKE THE OTHERS N GOT ME SINGING THIS SAME SAD SONG
WHILE MY HEART WAS SLOWLY BREAKING, HE WAS CAUSING IT TO DO SO
BUT HID IT WITH HIS SMILE AND SLICK WORDS AND MY HEART HE SO SELFISHLY STOLE
AND IM STRUGGLIN TO MAKE IT NOW, BUT I HAVE TO PRESS ON EVEN THOUGH
WHILE HE WAS DOIN HIS DIRT, I RESISTED THE EVIL TEMPTATION
AND EVEN THOUGH NIGGAS TRIED 2 GET CLOSE, I PUSHED OFF THE SENSATION
BUT LITTLE DID I KNO I WAS LOOKIN DUMB CAUSE I SURELY WASN'T HIS OBLIGATION
WHILE I WAS TRYNA PLAY MS. FAITHFUL, THE ROLE OF A WIFEY, HE WAS SEEIN HER
AND MAYBE IT ONLY BURNED ME SO BAD CUZ I HAD WARMTH WIT HIM NOW I FEEL WINTER
NOW SHE'S CARRYING A SEED THAT MAY BE HIS AND I THOUGHT I WAS A WINNER
WHILE I HAD PPL TELLIN ME HE WAS DOIN ME DIRTY, HE TRIED 2 CONVINCE ME THEY LIED
SO I DID WAT ANY SHORTY WOULD DO, STUCK UP FOR HIM AND PUSHED BACK MY PRIDE
BUT SOON I BEGAN TO REALIZE IT WAS ALL TRUE AND I DID WHAT ANY GIRL WOULD DO, I CRIED
WHILE I WAS CRYING MY TEARS OF PAIN, HE TOLD ME I 2ND GUESSED HIM N DIDN'T TRUST
BUT HE WAS SO CAUGHT UP IN THE PAST AND DISSED MY LOVE FOR LUST
AND I KNO IM HOLDIN ONTO THIS WAY 2 LONG N LETTING GO IS A MUST
WHILE IM BREAKING DOWN HE'S TELLIN ME ALL THE THINGS IM DOIN THAT I SHOULDN'T
AND IM THINKIN I COULD TELL HIM SO MANY THINGS HE DID THAT I THOUGHT HE WOULDN'T
BUT THEN I LOOK BACK ON ALL THE POSSIBILITIES I HAD AND HOW I JUS COULDN'T
WHILE WE STARTED OFF AS THE BEST OF FRIENDS, I QUESTION HIS MOTIVES NOW
WAS HE PLANNIN TO HURT ME FROM THE JUMP AND GOT CLOSE SO I WOULDNT BELIEVE PPL NO HOW
AND NOW THE ONLY THING I CAN HEAR ARE MY CRIES AND NO OTHER SOUND
BUT WHILE I CNT H8 HIM, AS BAD AS I WANT 2, HE SITS BACK AND DOWN TALKS ME
HE SAID IM TOO EMOTIONAL AND CANT JUST CHILL, WHY CANT HE SEE?
I JUS WANTED HIM 2 KNO HOW HE MADE ME FEEL, THE THING IS HE CAUSE THIS TO BE
WHILE I WILL NEVER TRUST ANOTHER WIT MY HEART'S KEEP, I THINK DAMN HE MADE ME WEAK
I THOUGHT ID B STRONG BUT I GUESS EVERY GIRL REACHES THEIR PEAK
AND THERE'S NOT MUCH ELSE I CAN DO BUT REMINISCE AND WEEP
WHILE I JUS KEPT SAYIN THIS CANT BE, HE HURT ME BEYOND REPAIR
AND FOREVER WILL I BE SET IN THE BLEEKNESS OF DESPAIR
FOR LIFE I WILL CARRY THIS LOAD WITH ME WITH NO LOVE TO SPARE.
Published 20th May 2010
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21st Jul 2010 9:12am
I loved this poem,one of my favorite on this site.You are very poetic and real wit urs...I can definately relate to this,but then again what woman cant...lol(*****)
