i don't care

i'm cold and alone
vexed to my soul
cant understand or
read the rhyme that i
publish
too much shit in my head
cant really feel for the world
i've been pushed past the edge
but its all my fault
i've done this to myself  
cut the pain
cut the sorrow
cut the lies
cut the fear
but not anymore
caked with dry blood
i'm here all alone
i'm reminicing on the past
but now i'm gone
left the world
left myself
an empty shell
he's all alone fighting off
demons in the dark
demons in his mind
can't help blame it on himself
yet he knows that there is something
far deeper inside something shinning
but he snuffs it aways
looks the other way
doesn't want to believe
want to see that
there's still something inside
something to heal
something to break
leave him more socially dead
but im scared of the truth
scared of myself
cant care for the rest
trying to be the best
but failing everytime
and i dont care anymore
too many mishaps
too many mistakes
i dont care
i cant care