directionless

the blade as my compass.
depression so infectious.
heart always leads me in the
wrong direction.
false gods and unholy confessions.
bleeding hearts and lacerations.
heartbroken dreams and constelations.
deep and slow, deep and slow.
go until you scrape the bone.
apathetic and directionless.
i've lost all faith i had before.

i needed an answer to my prayers.
and you, illusion! you were never there!
now with a thrice blow to my throat.
i will enter my world of bliss.
and awaken finding myself in the crimson
pool of despair.
life isn't fair, and i no longer care.
you left me screaming at the ceiling,
hoping for an answer.
this is plaguing my mind like cancer.
keep the blade steady, i was born ready.
i was always directionless.
and now the white walls bleed my pain.
Goodbye!