My Own Personal Hell

You loved me,
filled me with purity that caressed and soothed,
made me a better person,
kept me living when I didn't think I deserved too.
You showed me what love was all about,
how two become one,
made my soul jump and shout!  

Then in an instant you were gone,
I was lost and didn't want to be found.  
You hurt me,
ripped my heart from my chest,
twisted it,
stomped the last beating piece,
you turned away leaving me laying abreast.

I thought you were gone forever,
that I would live a life without your touch,
your smile,
your laugh,
my destiny in a single instant changed forever.

Over time I moved on,
came to grips that you didn't want me.  
I found other's to help ease my broken heart,
but couldn't fill the hole you left voided at the start.

Now I find myself full circle,
you came back,
over flowing,
closing the gap,
that left me broken and easily attacked.

You made me believe that you were mine,
here to stay at last,
once again you healed me with your touch,
my heart as fragile as broken glass.

Time moved on and I was in a heavenly bliss, treasuring each moment,
every touch,
tender kiss.
I fear that you will run again,
leaving me an empty hollow shell,
tormented on that ledge,
afraid you will turn my heart into a disgusting sledge.

I beg you to open your eyes,
see the purity of my heart,
don't leave me lost in demise.
treasure me as I do you,
fall under my loving spell
please don't send me back.
to my own personal hell!