Throw Me Away

I've never had the urge like
This. To take the blade and
Let it taste blood. My heart is
Twisted by all that the day brings.
I grow cold, and everything spins.
The light dims, and all is black.
I've grown numb to these
Memories, I've avoided them
For a long time now, and when they flood,
My heart begins to stutter. Tears glitter within my eyes,
And I fall deeper into my hell.
Please hear me. Can't you
Understand this? I feel like
An old book with a broken binding..
Cant function well, loosing parts of me
And cant keep together.
I can't hold on.. I need a way out..
I want to die, and there will be no angel
Saviour. Just the demons dancing around
Laughing and letting me bleed..
Like a broken binding to an old useless book,
Throw me away. Please..
I'm tired of suffering.