hideaway

here i sit in my hideaway
its not a very bright spot
here its dark

its in the old barn in the hayloft
i spend hour upon hour just sitting here
i used to sit here with you

we used to come here
here where no one could see us..
now its different

so i sit here with the cat
and i cry
i cry until theres nothing left
until i can no longer see anything
until i am away from this world in a better place
until the pain is temporarily dissapeared

i live in this world of lonliness
inside myself
breaking away from reality
but as soon as i leave this place
i know i will have to sew my heart back together
and put on a fake face
until tomorrow comes and i can return to this
hide away.