Under Loved

Why did u let that happen?
I told you.
You did nothing.
You just sat and waited.
You expected me to be ok.
That stuff sticks!
It sticks to the part of me that i wish i could just rip out!
I need that gone.
I wish I could just forget it.
I need to.
He invaded me.
He used his power over me to hurt me.
I was so small,
so weak.
How did you expect me to take care of this myself?
How did you expect me to fix that on my own?
I can't trust you.
How can I after that?
I needed you.
You didn't care.
You just left me to fend for myself.
I need your help!
I will never need you again.
I have learned from my mistakes.
I have learned not to put to much faith in someone because the next day they could be gone.
They could just leave you.
They don't really care.
They just make you think that so they can get what they want.
They use and abuse you to get satisfaction.
They ease toward you and tempt.
And when you say no they force you down and invade your space with there pieces.
They don't keep to themselves like they should.
They don't stop when you yell.
They just quiet you with their mouths.
But it doesn't matter if someone hears you anyways.
No one cares.
No one will stop them.
They are to powerful.
Everyone loves them.
Everyone but me.
You say "Oh but they didn't mean to hurt you they were just playing"
DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND?! DO YOU NOT GET THET THEY HURT ME?! DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND THE SEVERITY OF THE SITUATION?! NO! YOU DON'T! BECAUSE THIS NEVER HAPPENED TO YOU! AND IT NEVER WILL! NO ONE WILL EVER TEACH YOU YOUR LESSON! THEY WONT EVER TOUCH YOU!
They will never tell you that you are worth nothing and hit you.
They will never tell you that your ugly and didn't please them enough.
They will never tell you that your fat and disgusting.
"Go clean yourself, your looks displease me."
They wont ever tell you that because everyone loves you.
Try being me. Not everyone loves me because I'm broken and no one can fix me.
I'm to much work. I don't function right. I have bad day's. I have heart aches. I'm sick.
I am under loved.