Beg To End It

Self abuser and misuser  
I buy razors  
You buy shoes or  
Drugs and boose  
Got nothin to lose  
But I gotta choose or  
breakdown  
In front of the crowd  
Youre one of em now
 
 
 
No stop, Daddy dont
No its just a memory  
Fallen from a family  
Wait Mommy, woah  
You drank drugs like coffee  
Drank and ate em like candy  
Brother beats me randomly  
Mommy doesnt care, sadly
Uncle so righteous  
Has everything he wants  
Hes nothing like us  
Yet he trys to be tough
 
 
 
Its in the past, let go  
Oh no, they dont go  
Its a no show  
Ill be a hobo  
On the streets of Limbo
Let it all out
But how?
 
 
 
Hey God, whos to blame  
Oh me? Oh well, okay  
Hey God, where Im goin?  
Oh where? Oh, hell okay
 
 
 
Im sorry Lord  
Please forgive me...  
Im a whore  
A sinner, oh kill me  
No, wait dont  
Theres still good in me  
Just give me strength  
And shorten the length  
Of the path on my journey
 
 
 
 
 
Fits of psychotic panic attacks  
Im surprised Im fully intact  
Maybe not a whole  
Im stuck in a hole  
Of insanity  
OF WEAKNESS  
Too lazy  
TO BEAT THIS
 
 
 
Plead to the reaper  
TO REAP THIS  
Pray to the heavans  
TO END THIS  
Get on your knees please
 AND BEG TO FUCKING END IT
 
 
 
My brain, slowly and brutally, rotting away  
Deterioting like an addicted crack-whores teeth  
If any of you would feel this in any way...  
You'd mutilate until theres nothing left to bleed
 
 
 
Mut-il-ate
 
 
 
Not up to date  
They instigate  
Let me tell you...  
Im going irate  
Its. Too. Late  
 
 
 
No stop dont hit me. I didnt do anything...
 
 
 
I DIDNT DO ANYTHING  
Brother abuses me  
I DIDNT DO ANYTHING
Family uses me  
I DIDNT DO ANYTHING  
No one chooses me
I DIDNT DO ANYTHING
Adrenaline makes me shake  
I DIDNT DO ANYTHING  
Itll be too fucking late  
I DIDNT DO ANYTHING  
In my bedroom alone, I hear screaming  
I DIDNT DO ANYTHING  
Out of random, he hands me a beating
I DIDNT DO ANYTHING  
Theres no backing down  
I DIDNT DO ANYTHING
Theres no way out
I DIDNT DO ANYTHING
First with his fist, he gets so rough  
I DIDNT DO ANYTHING  
Even when Im crying, it isnt enough  
I DIDNT DO ANYTHING  
Only one who can stop it is my mother  
I DIDNT DO ANYTHING
But she doesnt care, she doest wanna be bothered  
I DIDNT DO ANYTHING  
Pretend its okay  
I DIDNT DO ANYTHING  
Then the next day...  
I DIDNT DO ANYTHING
It starts again, Im a shame
I DIDNT DO ANYTHING  
Pant my name will blame  
I DID EVERYTHING
 
 
 
Suicide is a lie, but it seems so surreal  
Say goodbye to everything thats real  
Cuz youre a psycho now, breaking down  
So easy to crumble and peel  
Since we cant mend this  
Get on your knees please  
And beg to fucking end it
 
 
 
BEG TO FUCKING END THIS