Trying not to be crushed

I need to tell my heart to shut up
It's telling me so many things
I will fall so easily off the ledge
with a gold heart arrows in my head

I will fall so hard for so many
am I poisoned or cursed?
How bad am I suppose to get?
Will this be better before worse?

My crushes are crushing me
curse them and their pain
Things inside of me
are beginning to change