life in pain

I can't help but watch
as the blood creeps
from under my skin
as it turns from blue to red
a scar starts to form
from the moment the blade
touches my flesh
I'm taken by a sensation
a longing for hope and trust
a chance on love
and no chance on a prayer
I sink to the floor
finding nothing there
I curl up and live
live the only way I know how
I live in fear
I live a life alone in pain
I live only to die another day.