what annoys me

Seriously,
family annoys the hell out of me lately.
You say you want the best for me,
but I don’t see that when all you do is nothing.
You tell me I need to get better,
but I don’t see you helping me when all you do is bring up the past.
Telling me I can’t help my own brother is ridiculous.
Really though,
I’m trying to work things out,
and change to become a better person,
but all you do is discourage me,
and pull me back into my darkness.
    
Do you really have any idea on how damaged I am?
No!
You really don’t have any idea.
You’re all blind!
You don’t see the damage that you'v done.
You brought me up to be a blossoming flower,
but now look at me.
All I am now is a black abyss.
I’m lost in darkness,
and all I can do is scream
even when I know you don’t how to find me,
and you probably don’t even care.