Tormented

All alone inside my head
puddles remain from tears i've shed
shadows abound
where memories are found
imaginary conversations had
leaving us feeling confused and sad
rancid smells that fill the air
talking to ourselves cause noones there
waking up in our own putrid refuse
as the night before our bodies we abused
injections causing erections
unprotected passion causing infections
Self mutilation
intellectual masturbation
it all started off so innocently
it felt like a second, but lasted an eternity
I sigh deeply then try to say
but fear seem to always get in the way
words unspoken
a twisted soul broken
imagination
temporary salvation
tormented by demons who deceive
haunted by lessons I didn't believe
sometimes reality
is clouded by insanity
Sometimes the truth is a lie
pondering life as we slowly die