I'm really dead

I love you,
You know that,
All I want to do,
Is get your affection,
But when I told you,
I was rejected,
My soul was crushed,
You totally killed it,
And I felt so rushed,
To make my body follow,
And I almost did,
It was too hard to swallow,
And I was choking,
But not from you,
My throat was soaking,
With my blood,
I couldn't let my hands go,
And I knew I was a dud,
Never to get in your mind,
How about you show me your heart,
And i'll show you mine,
Because i'm alive though it's slayed,
So why don't I rip it out,
Don't worry i'm not afraid,
The only thing i'm scared of,
Is you wanting me afterwards...