I Need Pain

Do you see me in this dream
Staring down at you?
I am here for a scream
But you will have to do

I needed to get away
From the sad, sad world
And here, I want to stay
In a land of imagination swirls

That world doesn't bring me pleasure
Inside or out
There, my sadness is a measure
And it is full of doubt

Do you know the things that make me happy?
Smiles don’t bring a smile to my face
Neither does something sappy
No, all I want is a certain place

I want a place
Where I can feel pain
I don't care of the pace
I just want to again, feel the rain

I hate not feeling
It is a weakness upon all
It doesn’t even seem appealing
So why give it a call?

I need pain
Without it, I would be dead
But at least I am now sane
Even if I’m only hanging by a thread…