Internally

There are so many things
running through my head.
Seeing your face,
is what I dread.
I need to get it together
and put on my fake smile.
It may feel like forever
but its only been a little while.
Why did you do this?
Why did you lie?
How could you hurt me?
Does it feel good to see me cry?
I loved you,
I thought you felt the same.
You tricked me,
now all I feel is pain.
I cut myself
and watch me bleed.
But what you did,
is cut me internally.
I was always honest,
I stayed true to who I am.
All I asked of you
was to be a man.
So its time
for me to let loose,
go ahead
and hang myself from this noose.
One day,
you'll remember the tears I cried.
You will NEVER forget
the night that I died.
Don't worry,
I will come back for you!
And choke your fucking neck
till you turn blue!!!