Waiting for the Dawn

All around me as far as i can see is darkness staring back at me ...
I swim and i trudge thru the dispair
but cant find light anywhere.

The pain is here filling me
cuts so deep
but only i can see.

I cry in silence so know one hears
so here i lie in my own misery
no way out but thru the door
but fear holds me back from release that i am assured.

Some say Hell is not a place to be
I am telling you now that is where i dwell
fighting to live where i don't belong
and fearing again the moving on.

What may there be beyond the stars
will my heart find peace
and my body rest
or will there be another test

Can there be final sleep
where i have no pain
and no disease?

Will i handle my finial day
with my head up
and my heart as true as today?

Will i see another dawn
or will i remain
in darkness after i move on ?


By Gypsy Amria 9/8/10 (bought with cancer inspired this)