It's over now

Can you here him?
He's voice is in my head now.
He's become my conscience.  
I used to know him so well.  
I cannot find the clarity, The time to slumber.
 
Confused as to why he has made everything seem,
So impossible.  
I sit back as he watches through my eyes,
The life I am slowly building.
The life he is trying to ruin.
 
"Don't be scared" he tells me.
"I can be your friend again.
You don't need him?
He's half the man I was?"
 
I am trying to ignore him!
I swear!
but his voice is getting louder and louder.
each time I tell you I hate him.  
 
But that is the truth.
I HATE HIM!
And in saying this,  
It is the biggest understatement.
He's dead. to me and to the world.
so how can this be?
 
Fucking Bastard!
 
"Kill him. It'll be easy, No one will know".
 
I try to ignore him! but now it's all i think about
He's telling me to do bad things.
he cries. he yells.  
and i cant drown him out.  
No matter the amount of liquor.
No matter how deep the scars.
 
I'm scared. He sings to me.
Songs about death.  
It fucks me up and I cannot escape!
 
Kill you? no.. I love you.. I'm not listening to him I swear!
I would never! EVER!
 
"Than kill yourself, I will not stop until your with me".  
 
My heart is pounding from within my chest,
but its numb now.so by the time it gets broken.
I'll be gone.
 
It's over now
 
 
20/11/09