morning

Such novel thoughts    
As I pushed your hair from in front of your eyes    
To read your fragile gaze while we fall into bed    
Moon lit beams shine on our interlocked hands    
Counting the freckles on my shoulder    
I could lay here forever    
Humming you to sleep    
Adjusting the blankets to make sure to rest comfortably  
So fondly I feel for your soul    
Morning comes and you’re so quick to undress me    
I was hoping to undress your mind before    
Expecting to hear you dreamt of us    
I know I did ~    
In fields of flowers intertwining hearts    
Let me be the one your brain can’t shut off in a doze    
But you reached for my body first    
And ignored my delicate needs    
So easy for you to be intimate    
While being so afraid of intimacy    
I can feel your energy pulling away    
From blue vibrations into grey skies    
And that’s when I realized    
I saw so much light inside of you    
Before I realized there were no longer stars    
Beneath you as sweat falls on my cheek    
You feel nothing unless you’re inside of me    
I should grab my things and go    
Save myself the time    
But you’ll still call me in the evening    
As the sun settles and you smell me on your shirt    
I’ll try not to answer    
Though, I know I’ll see you tomorrow    
And say nothing    
As we tie tongues and drink to ignore the obvious  
Holding back my tears while nestled in your chest  
I’ll feel everything in the morning  
And think to myself-   
How deeply I wanted to fall in love with you…