There Was Never A Place For Me In Life, Never Will Be Room For Me

What was I thinking?
There was never any
Room for me in anyone's life..
I can't believe I deluded
Myself to believing such a lie.
I shouldn't of believed
Any of those words..
"I love you"... "I need you"..
"Forever."... "I promise.."
I should've known from the start.
Now I lay here in the dark
Alone, while everyone
Is out and living..
I lay drowning in tears and
My blood... I was drunk with these
Delusions.. Now I only
Feel the pain of reality..
I blast metal so no one
Hears my screams..
I block out the world..
No one will notice..
Everyone who once knew me
Will only forget.. They will stop
Caring... Some wont notice...
I'm sorry I lied to myself..
Ill bleed myself dry...
And no one will see..
Ill cry myself to eternal sleep,
No need for a lullaby..
Not needed in anyones life...
Who cares? I never had a place
In anyone's heart..
Theres no room for
A lost cause...
I'll run away in a dream,
And I won't be coming back.