your love

I really do sometimes look at you all,
and my guts shivering in disgust.
so, with all of my power,
the storm in my soul;
I conclude, you shall die, bite the dust.

and my heart may be rotten, no human involved
in these thoughts,
may the devil feel joy,
as he raised his own child,
I am cruel and bold
yeah I think that I am a good boy.

do you think this is awesome? I'm reckless inside
it won't stop,
please just shut the fuck up.
this is it, my mic drop
i am now at the top
close the door
i feel so miserable
why won't it just stop
these thoughts
are pursuing me
constantly

...

on second thought
as i wipe down my tears
i do realize
i have too many fears

loosing you - a disaster
it is doomed to melt down
and it will just get faster
up until i will drown

every moment with you
feels like i don't deserve
toleration, your soul
and the biggest - your love.