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I Am Afraid

As soon as people
Get close to me
Show me love
And I show it back

I can�t handle it

Can I leave?
Will you be angry?

I don�t think I deserve
Your love and support
And the laughs

That come out of your lips

You don�t deserve someone
Who doesn�t reply to texts
Until 3 days later
Because texting is not enough

But then it becomes too much

And suddenly
I have a best friend
And another dad

I feel guilty

I feel
Not worthy

My apologies.

Written by moony_

Published 17th Jul 2024

Author's Note

I don�t know how to reply to long messages full of love, full of passion and joy. Full of pride. I don�t know how to respond when I become a daughter, and I have a new dad. I don�t know how to respond to missing someone I have never met in real life. I don�t know how to say I love you. I don�t know how to express my feelings of love and gratitude. I don�t know how to explain all of this in person or over text but I know that I am sorry for being like this. I still care I always will, I�m not going anywhere. I just don�t know.

#anxiety #ImSorry #love

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