I'm Nothing, How are You?

So
this is the only avenue i have
kept in my back pocket
rocking out to muted sounds
i am
but a man
nothing more
but so much less
than you
could confide in
an ignorant claim
of self-defiance

oh my
i thought
for a brief second, that
i might be something
maybe have a thing to offer
yet it turns out
i'm just a pretty mess
like the aborted rest
of this shovel
all i can do is grovel

fuck them
and fuck you too
i'm here
but i'll never be you

motherfucker.