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A Sliver Of My Trauma

I still remember your face
and how quick it turned from confused
to broken
I remember
the shirt I was wearing
it was neon pink
and I had my sisters scissors in my hand

I was terrified
I didn't even do any damage
I didn't want to do it
but I was decaying

and your face
and your heart

they looked so broken

you were sobbing while you held me
and I was just staring at the wall

thinking

"please let me go mom"

"please let me go"

i'm glad you didn't let me go

I know in the end it wasn't you who became broken
but me

I love you

Written by moony_

Published 4th Jun 2024

Author's Note

I'm starting EMDR for lots of things but the one i'm doing next week is �about my feelings of being a burden. I'm slightly terrified and also excited. I just know it's going to be emotional and I don't know if I can handle that. My therapist and I started, sort of, today. She wanted to know this specific story and it hurt and I hate thinking about it even though it's only been 2 years. But I have to. I hate healing because it's so difficult. But, onwards.

#MentalHealth #PTSD #suicide

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Re. A Sliver Of My Trauma

The_Darkness_Insid

4th Jun 2024 3:27am

I know at this point Im probably sounding like a broken fucking record, but fuck it. I am just so damn proud of you! You have such a determination in you and that is why you will have what you want. Keep moving towards your goals and there is nothing that can stand in your way. The only thing in this world that can stop you is you. Stay out of your own way. Be kind to yourself. Take care of yourself in the same way that you like to take care of others. You deserve that care. You deserve that love from yourself. You got this! I would never doubt you for a second after what I have seen from you in just a short time that I have been around. It makes me confident that you will do great things.

Im glad she didn't let you go too. The world would be missing out on someone special. The world would be missing out on all that you have to offer. Stay and thrive.