Lack Of  Self Control

I had hope,
I even believed..
But I'm begining to
Realize that I've been decieved.
Wish I could find
A way to disappear..
Nothing seems to go away,
And all my thoughts that make
No sense, I begin
To confuse everything
That is real..
Against my will I
Stand beside my own reflection,
It`s haunting how I can't seem
To find myself again..
I've lost control of myself..
The answers I find aren't so
Clear. My wounds never seem to heal,
And I'm being pulled beneath the
Surface. Drowning my
Own will to fly..
This lack of self
Control is what I
Fear.