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Just Feel Safe
In your embrace, i tend to find my escape
from worldly factions and dismal places
with impartial races having depressing faces
and feeling like my life is severely jaded
and i start fading
.... [font=Tahoma,Geneva]away ....
I ask myself "Why do I stay?"
when what you offer
isnt even half of what i deserve,
and you can be such a perve
But i play along too
sending messages and signals
that i want more than just you
Your body is enticing,
not just because of its beauty,
I just feel safe with you
and i hate that you don't see me
For what i truly am,
perfection of your heart
For who i truly am,
a broken girl crippled and scarred
I think that you see me
as some girl to fill your lonely space
give a call to in the middle of the nights
to ease your daily 'manly aches'
I think you see me
as someone not apart of your future
as someone 'just for now'
I am really just some girl?
That girl?
Really? Am I just your 'booty call'?
Do you not think so far ahead?
You confuse me to no end.
... and ...
Your smile...
Your hugs...
Your kisses...
Your comfort...
all of which keeps me where i am
Still i am pinned to your wall
How did i get like this?
What a hard fall!
In your embrace, i tend to find my escape
from worldly factions and dismal places
with impartial races having depressing faces
and feeling like my life is severely jaded
and i start fading
.... away ....
Here i am, still i stay?
"Feeling safe" because you keep me from fading away,
even when its you who has me down
you're still around
... and ...
I just feel safe with you
and i hate that you don't love me
I just feel safe with you
and I've said it so much
that I believe this illusion is true
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Published 2nd May 2012
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9th May 2012 11:54pm
Interesting poem. You surely are a talented poet. But (and here is always but on the other hand) your believing (feeling) that all you marvelously said above is an "illusion" and you still think it (the illusion) "is true" strikes me as, at best, a contradiction. How can one know that X is an illusion but base his/her hopes, desires, indeed very self on it (the illusion)? Illusions by definition are false. Are they not? Or am I reading something into all this that is not there? Am I mistaken? Am I living in illusion?
Marcella1
Marcella1
Hey Marcella:)
I appreciate your comment very much. Thank you for commenting. I always like feedback/questions. Thank you for the compliment as well.
You asked 'how can one know that X is an illusion but base everything on the illusion':
I think people all have or create illusions as a form of coping or defense mechanism. The issue is when believing the illusion and it becomes harmful to yourself and/or others. Once someone is completely aware of or at least acknowledges that there might be/is an illusion then there is a basis for coming out of it.
-I feel great and happy and everything is 'perfect' when he's around. He is my escape however he has given me/built up this illusion.. an illusion which is false.
-Illusions are false.Although, one can always have false hope/desires. You know wanting them to actually (over time) turn into something real.
-What we have is seemingly real but when you strip it apart and lay the facts bear the realisation is its all an illusion.
-I grapple with discerning whether X might be the truth bc he makes it so convincing and i want to believe it is but.. it isnt. Bc if it was i wouldnt doubt SO much.Yes i feel X but Y is the truth. Like X are words and Y are actions and they just dont coincide; saying one thing and doing another.
Example- I know its best that i take the garbage out but i dont bc im lazy. People know better yet do not do better and thats how one can know X is an illusion and base everything on that illusion when Y is the reality.
You might be living in an illusion-- who knows?? INCEPTION lol
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I appreciate your comment very much. Thank you for commenting. I always like feedback/questions. Thank you for the compliment as well.
You asked 'how can one know that X is an illusion but base everything on the illusion':
I think people all have or create illusions as a form of coping or defense mechanism. The issue is when believing the illusion and it becomes harmful to yourself and/or others. Once someone is completely aware of or at least acknowledges that there might be/is an illusion then there is a basis for coming out of it.
-I feel great and happy and everything is 'perfect' when he's around. He is my escape however he has given me/built up this illusion.. an illusion which is false.
-Illusions are false.Although, one can always have false hope/desires. You know wanting them to actually (over time) turn into something real.
-What we have is seemingly real but when you strip it apart and lay the facts bear the realisation is its all an illusion.
-I grapple with discerning whether X might be the truth bc he makes it so convincing and i want to believe it is but.. it isnt. Bc if it was i wouldnt doubt SO much.Yes i feel X but Y is the truth. Like X are words and Y are actions and they just dont coincide; saying one thing and doing another.
Example- I know its best that i take the garbage out but i dont bc im lazy. People know better yet do not do better and thats how one can know X is an illusion and base everything on that illusion when Y is the reality.
You might be living in an illusion-- who knows?? INCEPTION lol
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