Why Do I Put Up With You?

You were my love. my life.
I gave everything to you.
I trusted you.
Funny what can happen if you leave your phone at home.
Funny what can happen when you get a message saying how great yesterday was
Looking at the number... Funny how it is my best friend
I never knew i could feel so much pain
I never knew i could feel so dead
There was so much blood when i put the blade to my skin... Never knew i had so much
I wish i could tell you i hated you
I wish i could tell you to fuck off
I wish i could... but i cant. You know why? Cause for some messed up reason. I still love you..