A Game Of Regret

I've noticed nowadays you seem distant
You took your love away in an instant
Just like that gone without warning
I didn't recognize the void that was forming
How did I manage to miss the signals that were shown?
My mind drifted to another place
My heart didn't provide enough space
That you needed so you felt left out
It was taken up by all my doubt
I pushed you away and now you don't answer your phone
If I could turn back the clock I would
I should've realized I had it good
Now I'm missing you more than ever
Wishing now that I've treated you better
I have time to dwell on my mistakes since I'm alone
Four walls staring back at me
This hot mess a catastrophe
My fear of love it comes naturally
Why the hell does this have to be?
I don't have the answer all I know is you won't come home
But I'm to blame for all my guilt and all my shame
The regret and the pain it's all part of the game

You have eyes now for someone else
While I'm so stuck hating myself
Took you for granted now I'm single again
I couldn't see how stupid I've been
Didn't catch on to anything now it's all too late
If you only knew you're still being missed
You don't care pretending I don't exist
It's all my fault so I couldn't be pissed
Took back your lips and gave your ass to kiss
I stole away your love and transformed it all to hate
Now the sight of me makes you cringe
I know sometimes you want to seek revenge
Let it out you got the right to vent
Save me from suicide attempts
Please even the score lay down the law and set the record straight
Give me the lashing that I really deserve
Your choice of words are the ones you prefer
I have no say go ahead criticize
Silly me I had to forfeit my prize
Never will I find another guy that's the perfect mate
But I'm to blame for all my guilt and all my shame
The regret and the pain it's all part of the game