Well I Don't See Why I Haven't Done This Before

That's What Scares Me.
not the feeling of new
not the feeling of disgust
not the feeling of discomfort!
the feeling that I've been chasing this feeling
that I've been longing for this feeling
that I've been aching for this feeling

could it have been like this?
if i was alone in this world
if i really felt alone in this world like
every night i've spent feeling alone like this

what's all the time worth
that i spent afraid of what it'd mean to get this feeling
what shock when i learned it was worth nothing
here's now
i have now
and something sweet telling me to fall

that's the word
fall