I shouldn't

I shouldn't have to live my life,
Always wishing you were there,
I really shouldn't walk this world,
Afraid to let myself care.

These are the scars you left,
When you walked out of this place,
To this day,
Tears still roll down my face.

I shouldn't have to drink,
Just to get some rest,
Im trying to forget,
Im giving it my best.

The sadest thing of all,
I really shouldn't love you,
But to this day,
I still do.