Apples n oranges

My collapsing insanity is a perpetual roller coaster that I do not enjoy...
My consciousness continuously questioning itself as a legitimate presence is all but awakening and acts more like a entity wanting to be destroyed
The depths to desires are slowly rotting into an abyss that can no longer be perceived...
Burbles of thoughts
that once were emanating emotions
Have become so brittle and lacks all devotion....
The joys of laughter and comfort that onces filled the air and welcomed the night
Are anything but inviting and bright
I fear I have fallen deeply depressed..