Lost in the Never

NEVER
Rings chaotically
Clanging banging
Crashing breaking
Through my mind
 
I feel deceased forgotten
To your memory
To your now
 
Futile all my hope
 
The window I thought opened
But a crack
Is cracked
Revealing stone
Cold hard
Barricading
Sentencing my heart
To this never
Of you
 
I miss you more because
Home needs More
Home needs Hope
Rekindle this hearth-fire with flames
Of you
 
Or
Are you only ever
my NEVER?