To the life I never lived

 
To the life I never lived
The dreams I buried deep within
The paths I shunned away
The choices I couldn't keep
The secrets I had to keep
And the lie I had to live.


The love I have  sacrificed
The hope I have chastised
The joy I never tasted
In pain, I paid the price

The words I swallowed down
The songs I silenced out
The jokes I hid behind a frown
The words that never fell from my mouth
In silence I wore the crown.

To the life I never lived
The chances I let go
The risks I was too scared to take
The fears I couldn't show
The scars I had to own
And the nightmare I had to behold


To the life I never lived
I wonder what you hold
Your story remains untold
And your death  I've come to mourn.

I was never young enough to be a child
never a men enough to cry.
I took my suffering and carried it inside
I took my pain and hid it behind a smile
And through my teary, watery eyes.

To the life I never lived.
You were sacrificed
So I can survive.