Stab of love

I lay awake in my bed
not daring to let out a cry
lest i should be heard by my beloveds
and then they would wonder why

MY mind was racing fast
As the speed of light passing thru
I could feel my heart crying in pain
For the helplessness
Of losing a love so true

I felt the stab ur love gave me
I felt the tears of despair
I choked myself to silence in darkness
I was lost completely
But did not know where

Ur gift was so wonderful
U gave me a life wrapped with tears
U gave me the loneliness I never asked for
U gave the pain that would last for years