Midnight Divulgings

Darling, are you fast asleep?
Good.
This is the only time I can open up to you.
I miss the children around the house.
The empty spaces at the dining table seem so big.
I’m so proud of them although I could never say that to them.
I look in the mirror sometimes and I don’t recognise myself.
My aged face looks like it should belong to someone else.
I felt a pang of terror when I saw my first grey hair.
I’ve been groping at the sands of time for my lost youthfulness.
You may not like it but that leather jacket was important to me.
How was I to know when I was young,
about all the changes that were to come?
Life seems to have just flown by.
Far too quickly for my liking.
I rarely tell you this but you are my rock,
and I will love you always.
Although I dread becoming elderly,
I also look forward to growing old with you.
Goodnight, sweetheart.
Have a good sleep.