hope within the sorrow

 
I'm hoping to get back where we were
because the day was young and I felt safe in your arms
now the future seems uncertain
and I don't know if my internal voice is me still
 
I mean, I talk and it sounds like me but something is off
a deep sadness has moved in and is affecting my soul
I feel the world shifting, sighing and even screaming
I want to hide from it all but there is no sanctuary
 
heaven doesn't seem secure anymore
I feel the hounds at the gate and peer into humanities eyes
and see demons lurking there just waiting for my guard to drop
 
everyday I leave my house I wonder is today the day?
 
this is the saddest song I've ever sung
my melancholy deepens listening
I sway with the melody...understanding
 
there is a heady need here
to see sunlight smiling at me
I wonder is this your love
singing to me through the eternities
 
I love you Bren
 
my heart is heavy with grief
can you take it from me?
 
careful now daddy, don't let it seep into your heart, the sorrow
I feel it with my being
I love you isn't enough to make up for what's been done
 
I see you solemnly arms open to me
I pray this will never be our song
I don't want to be if you're not
 
if nothing takes the pain
I hope I will bring you smiles
a reprieve from the torture
of seeing innocence hurt
it scares me what has become
 
my guardian angel smiles and nods
says as you were soldier of old
we will take the giant down
untied we stand
shoulder to shoulder
 
daddy, I ache in the darkness
I wear a heavy crown
it is beautiful to me your vow
a vow made in blood
I carry it on my soul
 
I will make it up on most high
we have a date
 
I will be on time