I needed you

Today I needed you
I needed you to strangle every last breath of you out of my memories
Noose wouldn’t be enough of what is needed to get rid of you
Squeeze these thoughts tighter than lemons
Bleed out my mind with every suffocating moment I had with you
I’m drained with the evidence of your existence
There is no longer a place to hide within my conscience
A massacre would be too nice of a word of how I need you to go
I need you to slice loves throat because of how he made me feel for you
Make a bloody mess from the pain I get when I think of you
Bind love up and make sure to never come around again from the very sight of you
Shoot cupid down with not just an arrow from making me feel for you
There is no greater happiness than to kill loves joy if your part of it
Today I needed you
I needed you to dissolve your scent from my sheets
Burn the very smell that made me swoon for you
Throw the ashes into the river never to descend in my air again
Kill the very thing that keeps the memories alive
Because I no longer want to know you
Your death to me
Thoughts of you is a disease
Spreading through my soul and committing suicide to my heart
I’m dying
I feel every muscle aching with memories of your touch
I’m allergic to your very name as it hovers in my atmosphere
Feel myself coughing and choking
Rashes start to appear from the places you use to caress
The deathly scent of it surrounds me
No amount of incents can remove that stench
Today I needed you
I needed you to deprive my thoughts of your voice.
Throw me in a bath of scolding hot water and scrub me down with a brillo pad
Instead of remembering how you sound
Kill yourself…..from my thoughts
A million “I love yous” from your lips is like stabbing me in the heart and watching me bleed….
Dry and doing it all over again
I become a serial killer to my thoughts that I loved you
Ripping and shredding out the seconds I spent withyou
Blinding my conscience mind of your existence
I desire coma just to forget you
Drowning my mind would be a blessing just to rid me of your thoughts
Throw shrapnel’s at the day dreams of us
I want my thoughts to die
I hate you
And Today
All I needed you to do is
Remove yourself from my mind