Skin

The blood pouring down my arms
Are the tears I cannot cry
I cant believe its gone this far
What has happened to me?

I carve all the lies I told you into my skin
Hoping one day you'll hear my silent cries
You'll see past my smiles
And see the pain within.

My arm stings but I like it
My fingers coated with blood
I trace patterns onto my skin
Without realising I spelt your name.

I'm fine, I really am
Not that you care
I'll always be just that girl you used to know
The one you thought hadn't a care in the world.

Let it be clear I don't do this for you
Or because of you
I just can't help but think of you
When I see the blood dripping.

I think about your face
Twisted in disgust
I think about your eyes
Glinting with unshed tears.

I think about your jaw
Clenched tight
I think about your hands
Wrapped around my throat.

I think about your mouth
Moving to speak the words
I so desperatly want to hear you say
'I love you' spills from your lips,

As I slowly fade into nothing.