Depression

Depression has captured me and locked me away inside my head. It ran over my heart like a deer and left me for dead. I can't sleep, eat, or enjoy pleasurable activities. My soul is like an abandoned house infested with impurities. I have been forgetful and having a hard time concentrating. It's a struggle and it's a shame that my reality is devastating. I feel like I can't go on, my fuel gauge has low self-esteem. The silence consumes every whisper and scream. Suicidal thoughts raced through my mind like Daytona 500. I thought of my past and lay there and wondered. I remember I was looking in the face at the end of a gun. Then I took my finger off the trigger when I thought about my son. The love I have for my family and my son is unconditional. If I was to pull that trigger then they would be miserable.
Why do things happen in my life the way they did? I wish I could turn back the hands of time to being a kid. Everything happens for a reason is what people have said. I gotta stop looking in my rearview and look ahead. I gotta find my purpose, exercise, do yoga, and pray. This depression is like a bad storm that will pass away. As long as I have God in my life he will take away this stress. He's my father & my GPS and he will guide me to happiness.
©2023 Corey “VERACEOUZ” Houser