Derailed

I awake for the day
anxiety I do not feel

For a moment, the thoughts
are empty

Go for a walk, visit with friends,
be productive, enjoy the day

With coffee in hand,
I start to plan

A random thought appears,
making itself known

My mind starts to obsess,
pain in the chest

So it begins
down the spiral
I go

Heart rate rises,
fluttering chest begins

Dizziness takes hold,
it will pass I'm told

The edge of the bed
I begin to enter my head

Discouraged again,
when will it end

I was once fine but now
controlled by my mind

Why me I ask
while I breathe and try to relax