Incapable

Dark shadow hanging over my head keeping me incapable the depression it's causing is starting to become fatal my mental mentality so unstable this world is causing me to become so hateful no matter how hard I try I'm left empty hand with nothing to bring to the table I'm stuck in this deadly cycle keeping me incapable. I try to do what's right make something of My life set goals for my future but it always becomes a fight a fight I never can win my patience is running thin so much anger building up no ambitious to lift me up makes it hard to keep my chin up with this so called life I'm just so fed up. Get one step forward just to get three steps back cant seem to get anywhere can't seem to get life on track wearing down on empty my strength I'm beginning to lack sometimes my chest gets so tight from stress like some sort of panic attack my mind always racing giving me sleepless nights makes me an insomniac i would probably be better off becoming a nymphomaniac but fuck it how else am I to react I guess I could just say fuck you and fuck you and fuck this and fuck that just kick back and relax just hurry up and pass me that weed sac I plan to just get high and smoke my life away with no words left to say and watch everyday fade day after day as I start to turn gray and slowly decay.
~JessD