For all that counts and that doesn’t

For all that counts and that doesn’t

For all that counts
The destruction of your precious heart
The demolition of trust I caused
The sweet lies that kept you on hold
The beautiful words my mind held

From the bottom of my unworthy heart
I am deeply sorry

For all that doesn’t count
For the cheap lilies I bought you
The few nights I used you
As we sexed, kissed and engaged an act of fake love
But you eventually found out it was an act of fraud
An act of fake love
The fake heartbreaking job  

For that does and doesn’t count my love
I am sorry

For every single moment
For the good times you gave me
The warmth I acted like I didn’t need
It was a gift
For the way you held me
Cared and looked out for me

And I took it for granted
And for everything else i did not recall
For every beautiful part of you I watched fall
I do thank you for helping me grow
I did force you outside my heart
Now i know
I am sorry