Not worth it....

His touch in anger...leaves a mark that reminds me for many days of his truth and intent...
  His touch when my body is conveinant and serves his purpose well,and to whatever extent....
   He continuously whispers to me about wanting to see my skills with other men...
   Describing with great detail many cocks occupying my every orifice ,and my willing and wanting consent...
   Knowing all the while I'm not really a willing partner,my heart and mind preventing me of going to that level..
   He's wanting me to relinquish my morals and ethics and protray myself as some willing hoe...
   It saddens and hurts me that he wants others to pin what I see as "ours" and not for anyone else to occupy or touch....
   I thought I was worth more to him ,his sacred strong bond ,I thought I meant more to him than that....
   But he uses names like whore,hoe,slut,..and when he's inside me also profusiing his mad love...
   This is not the same love I know or feel,it's like the stuff he watches daily even on top me his eyes glued to that screen,that he cannot get enough of....
  His rules are not the same when it comes to getting attention from others,there's just so many....but if I only befriend another he makes it out to be more than his indiscretions and disrespectful intentions...
   The things he says he should say only to me,but he does it so freely,not caring about me and how I've sacrificed for him,he will never give up his vices or others attentions, because one woman will never be enough for him....
   Not knowing exactly how far he goes when communicating with others,I'll never really know...
   Is that a good or bad thing?? I can't even think how far will he really go,?
   He's full of promises and lies,to keep me at bay he thinks,never really intending on changing or being true to me his stupid little hoe...
   No more promises and dreams to be let down anymore,I deserve more ,to be treated better...
  I cant be a whore or a slut ,or what he wants ,I won't give up my boundaries anymore ,sacrifice myself, when he won't ever want to change or see me as anything less but a giving piece of ass that he will never treasure...