it hurts so bad

i found out my husband cheated on me
i thought i was being the woman he wanted me to be

anything and everything he wanted me to do
i did in a heartbeat and have always been true

i'm not a cheater he would say
but maybe that was part of his game

i wish i didn't know, it has broken my heart
i love him so much, now i'm falling apart

i never expected that from him
i thought he was different from other men

he tells me i love him more than he loves me
what the hell is that supposed to mean

maybe if i loved him less
my life wouldn't be such a mess

i'm tired of living so much pain everyday
i pray for death to take me away

WHY DOES LOVE HURT SO BAD?????