Too Strong For This Shit...

Mentally disturbed,
by the actions of your being...
Unleashing something,
I swear you won't like seeing!
I'm so sick of everything,
Like its all my fault...
This is not what I thought it would be,
This is not the life I sought!
There's days when I wanna cry,
Others times, I wanna kill...
I keep my mouth shut for too long,
Then I blow up and I'm not satisfied still!
Through my life I have suffered,
On a daily basis, I battle manic depression...
I've been molested, verbally abused, brutally beaten,
Overcame drug addictions!
I heard the click of a gun,
Dry fired at my head...
Lately wishing that motherfucker,
Would have shot me dead!
I seen blood, guts and brains,
Scattered all over the ground...
Not one person reached out to him,
He took his life cause no one was around!
I tried to move forward,
Put my fucking past behind...
I was doing well enough on my own,
Now all your doing is messing with my mind!
What makes you think,
I will tolerate your shit...
Your like a helpless child,
Throwing your little fits.
I have battled a life,
That was against me from the start...
Climbing over obstacles and fears,
Gaining strength in the heart.
I will not let you bring me down,
I will stand up and fight...
For my strength will not allow,
The weakness you bring into my light!
So take your words, your accusations,
Yours fears for this life...
Cause eventually your going to find,
I'm to strong to be your wife!