Swell

Same old dealing with pain,
but I couldn't be
Better than I am but
what do you even care?
You don't know where I've been
I scrape my self esteem up
From the things people say
And I apply it on me
Like wet cement
But its not the same
It doesn't feel how it should
I feel it crawling all over me
It was always gonna go this way
My eyes swelled up and that was it
I always freeze right up at the last second