Don’t want to share

Don’t want to share
It’s so hard
Should i let it be
How do i know?
What if I’m right?
Do you see that it bothers me
That it could even hurt me
I sit here in silence
Watching, studying
Questioning if i am gonna see
See something that could destroy
Do you care?
Always wanting someone else
Sharing something so private
I just don’t know if i can
Why does it feel like it is required
If i don’t will it be ok
Am i still enough
Is this the drugs still
Please don’t make me
I don’t want to
I will entertain you til it passes
Hopefully quickly