The endless cycle

I always go back
Sometimes voluntarily
Sometimes I'm pushed
But I'm never gone for long

It's comfortable
In a sad way
It's cold here
But I can breath

I have all my worlds here
Nicely stored in alphabetical order
Here I can build my clouds
Because there's no wind to drag them away

After a while you start to miss the wind
I don't let it show
I know I shouldn't leave
That has never ended well for me

It looks clear outside
I can't resist to take a step
The wind takes me in
It dances around me

It lifts me up
I fly towards the sun
It's warmth on my skin
Please, just let it stay

Then the wind turns
It doesn't dance with me anymore
It throws me around
Right, up, left, down, down, further down

I fall
I get hurt
I don't die
I go back